I sat back.
I thought of all that I've done. All the sacrifices that I have made.
I wondered, does it still worth it? Am I regretting it...?

I really don't know what to do anymore God.
History always repeats itself.
What can I do, to stop this hurt from coming over and over again?

What a day to remember!!
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God's glory has indeed poured down over me.
I finally understand this "many are called, but few are chosen"
We are not chosen just any oh how~
But it is when we choose to take a step towards God, trusting Him with all of our life and all of our hearts, then He will unleash His plans for us, using us for the greater of His kingdom.
Being so limited in my comfort zone, I experience a breakthrough, just last year. where I had to start loving. But it is also that choice, that "yes God, please teach me how to love. " that really made God take 10000000 steps toward me and really imparted me with miracles.
I never regretted making such decision.
A decision to accept,
to love,
to forigve,
to have mercy,
to pray,
to serve,
to give,
to be there.
That this transformation, it's not just a transformation of an ordinary person. But a transformation through an extraordinary God.
Glory to glory it says.
Greater things are in place for everyone. It's a matter of choice still.
When we choose to walk, run and soar, He will be glorified, and we will receive that glory.
My new journey has began. Yes, an exciting journey. With many trials and tribulations coming up. With many awesome experiences. With a trusting heart, and a thirsty soul.
God, continue to come and teach me.
I will become stronger in You!

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Everything has its time.
1. To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:
2. A time to be born, And a time to die; A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted;
3. A time to kill, And a time to heal; A time to break down, And a time to build up;
4. A time to weep, And a time to laugh; A time to mourn, And a time to dance;
5. A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
6. A time to gain, And a time to lose; A time to keep, And a time to throw away;
7. A time to tear, And a time to sew; A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;
8. A time to love, And a time to hate; A time of war, And a time of peace.

Indeed, it is very true. Dichotomy, it says. A time of our seasons will come. And all we can do is slowly build up to withstand every adversities, every negativities. Because at the end of the time of all these adversities, the time of blessings will arrive. Like, the night will eventually turn into the day. We just need to lean upon God for all His glory covers us from those adversities, and we'll be able to pull through.
Be it spring, summer, autumn or winter, they won't stay there forever. They just keep changing, and changing. Likewise, we humans must also keep changing, but we have to change to become stronger, and stronger. Not just carnally, but spiritually. Stronger in Faith, in Love and in Hope.
We don't realise because we don't see in the eyes of God. Where God has already painted the whole view in front of Him. The whole view of our life, and our purpose. The whole view, where one cannot see it, unless trusting in God to remove the veil.
Our paths are everywhere. But they all lead to one ending. That is to God.
Some will take the longer way, some will take a shorter way.
But we know, everyone will be there at the end of the day.
Just got to keep pressing on, and keep moving on. ((:

A picture paints a thousand words. This is my awesome cell group. & I love them!








































We have come far. 2011 it's gonna be even more awesome for all of us!! <3

I'm just hanging by a thread..
Like the more I hold on, the more it's gonna break.
What could possibly happen.
Where will all my efforts go.
I seem to know it, by I couldn't confirm it.

Indeed, Your the reason for the season.

Giving thanks to You, is the most honourable thing I can do.
Loving You has awesomely changed my entire perspective of life.
Having You, is like having the whole world to myself.
Being used by You, is what I'm always seeking for.

Even though sometimes I feel out of place,
sometimes I feel alone,
sometimes I feel neglected,
sometimes I feel hurt,
sometimes I feel happy,
sometimes I feel excited,
sometimes I feel crashed,
sometimes I feel nonchalant,
You never let go of me before.

Despite letting 3 fingers off while holding you, You never let me go.
& that's when I put them back in place and cling on to You regardless what.

It's true, choices are the most powerful gifts You have given me.
But there's something even more precious, more worthy, and more prevailing.
That is the birth of the Most High.
& with this gift, I'm found and love.
With this birth, the Light of the world is even clearer than before.

Thankful to be found by Him. Setting me apart even before I knew it.
Thankful that He placed so many special people into my life.
My family, and my 2nd family.
Never in my whole life have I felt so complete, so true, so adored.
Putting all together, it's like my life had its turning point (:
Life's gonna be like a roller coaster but I'm very sure, trusting Him will make everything worthy of the ride.

Today, He truly blessed me with the ones qualified to be called the "i'll-be-there-for-you"
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Though I'm not sure about one who always says that he/she will be there, but I'm sure He will be there.
He will be there to provide me with those who also will be there.
I'll be there too, for anybody. because the broken promise of being there by the one you love is most tormenting than anything else.
Nonetheless, He manages to heal all inner wounds. :D
I know things will get better. I'll try, I hope he/she does too.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS THOUGH!!!
((((: <3

I choose to love just as You have first Loved me.

You've taught me just the right way it is. & I have learnt to love.
These 2 days of candlelight service, I'm implementing all that I have learnt to those new friends, and actually, with Your guidance, I actually did it. ((:
It's really great, to love and be loved!
Thank you Lord, for all of You is sufficient to me.
Still praying and believing for a great harvest and retention.
:D